warm today

after yesterday's freak weather today was warm and sunny. i went out in it wearing very little and feeling rather attractive for a change. of late i have just wanted to cover up but today was an exception. hmmmm nice... i wonder how long this feeling will last? its very hot

today i feel useless

in 2 weeks time my hours are being cut from 14 to 5 a week. obviously this sucks.
things to do

** find new job which means that sorting out my C.V. is necessary. my computer is so ancient that i am finding this impossible.
i also need to... (in a rough order of importance)

** Book my Driving Test
** Prepare for my theory
** Book train / coach tickets to York
** Sort out broadband
** Get Car Insurance
** Read 3 Books
** Write a 2000 word English Essay on 2 of the books
** Join The Gym
** Go To the Gym

And various other random yet slighty less important things

today i am tired as i stayed at [L]'s and went to bed in a bad mood. she thinks i am a snob. she fails to understand me and so labels me a snob which in truth could not be more inaccurate. a boring and uninteresting person who likes to refer to how i used to be in order to judge/ insult how i am now. she claims i am just like my new friends who she slightly despises. its a insult in disguise. i wish she wouldnt do that because it makes it hard for me to react properly. she is too afraid to openly insult me but i get the impression. it makes me feel angry and awkward.
its just started thunderstorming sunshine and showers. i need to shower.

i am tired. i feel useless.

i need some interesting conversation. i had to leave [L]'s as soon as i awoke.
i hope i can do at least 3 of my **'s to do before tomorrow.
i want to eat and nap. [L] is right when she says that my lifestyle is boring. i think it only seems boring maybe because she has few responsibilities and lacks substance. having stupid boring things to do makes you a person. She drinks alot. i hope i will achieve something.