Delirious

Today i feel scared,
scared that i might have depression, anxiety, OCD. i might be a self harmer, an escapist and a realist.
Or... all of the above at the same time!?
i can't see a way out. maybe i need therapy (how pathetic/impotent)
i gave my pret a manger crisps to a homeless bloke today but i didnt feel good about it. i felt ashamed that this was my only pathetic offering to people less fortunate than myself. Then i felt annoyed at the world for being to obnoxious.
this evening i called him out of desperation. bad move. its not what i really want.
sometimes things people say really get to me.
Jeff Buckley-"forget her" is beautiful.
i feel tingly and increasingly disappointed.
im concerned about Joss Stone's ears. i fear they may be deformed as she always has her hair halfway across her face. ears are nice. lobes are silky. are ears not in fashion?
im delirious. straight hair is nice, curly is better
im not in love anymore
goodnight
p.s. Maroon 5 suck my ass everyday