smashed

i can't remember the last time i had that much fun. i partied until 7am and fell in love with a boy. his soft hair and skin and caramel fingers. his hands on my thighs, his legs wrapped around me as we slept. everytime i woke up i thought "you're still beautiful-excellent!" it was so sweet and simple. perfection. a window to what i could have.

honest, pristine, unoffending, unsullied, pure,
wonderful

i don't love many people, but when i do its deep, rapid and long lasting. undiluted. today i cannot pick the words to describe things extensively enough. i cannot portray this feeling. i'm trying to express it, without letting it go.