to avoid fainting keep repeating

Thursday, September 29, 2005

The sun shines everyday but I look the wrong way when I cross the road.

Friday, September 23, 2005

hot hot summer-this is the end.

--> In bed throwing filthy dirty moves. Worshipping at the altar. The musical altar that is. Physical activities involves dancing and walking to and from. The best action I've ever had. Something pretty (but) interesting. Balloon fun you never grow out of. Indie meat markets. Infested with nons. It’s never the most obvious songs. Scanning the queue for safe ones. Ones we'd keep. Also when we dance we see eye to eye. Be my Polly pocket. So teeny weenie I could fold her up and put her in my purse and unfold her when I need a little thrill. They know not what they execute and I know not how much I create in my head. Oh and he might just be a keeper but in some other sense he makes me unwind oh yeah he makes me go out for the fifth night in a row. Lend me some money and some sleep. Keep going for the love of it. Oh how prepossessing it feels. Every minute detail joins and seals the beautiful fabric they inadvertently created. They know not what they do to me and I'll worship that and be thankful for that so long as I can. All the smiles and empty gazes. I watch the boys placing words in each others ears. One delicately sweeps his hair from his sullen face. The other looks dazedly unconcerned. I'd sneakily watch them from the corner of my big swollen eyes in suspense for the next treat. Will I ever know if Kat deserves a license to DJ? Nazi couples. Two-pound mixers. Dolled up monsters and we met on the dance floor again. The musical lubrication makes me slip and slide and talk and smile as I did. The accelerating songs cause spasms in my spine until the words are in my eyes and the music's in my mouth. Some days the music lubricates our every move. I think it’s the cohesive force and it's in between our fingers and it's sealed into the cracks on the 7" records and its folded in the creases in the flyers. It's such a curiously consuming construct.

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Gigs don't taste the same without cigarettes so I smoked anyway! It's illegal now that I live on Hill St. I went to the Haight today and i drank root beer. I want to eat everything. I'm trying to digest it all.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Today was the longest day. I ate breakfast twice, then I ate lunch and then dinner. Then I ate lunch again and dinner again.
I've been awake for 28 hours.

I forgot to pick up the Um Bongo

Monday, September 19, 2005

scratch my name out

This morning I got out of bed and was sick in the kitchen sink.
Later,
I took my old clothes to a charity shop, got some dollars and then I bought a 12 pack of Um Bongo to drink on the plane tomorrow.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

I fell in love at w.h.o.r.e.fest. -->

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

159 hours until take off

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

You were running late for work so you didn't change your shirt and the evening's drinks left a lingering taste in your mouth. When you left I was fast asleep, tangled in the sheets and on the bus you could have sworn it was all a dream that didn't happen to you.

Inside your head were things I never thought about.

Friday, September 02, 2005

trampling on the perimeters

My body clock is all messy. Absolute hedonism.
Be my Polly Pocket and I'll take you with me

The Arcade Fire blow my brains
but carefully put it back together afterwards
and then it's like they were never there to start with.

Tomorrow I'm going to Poitiers for a few days off.