Make it up, break it up, what do you care?

Today was a complete waste of make-up. Rushed to school to discover the only class was cancelled. Tried to book flight but virgin atlantic 'cannot process your request at this time'. I want to see Olivia. or at least do something productive. On the plus side. The day is still young and... it's
snowing and sunshining at the same time!

i wish i could write like:
"Stay if you wanna love me, stay
Oh don't be shy, let's cause a scene
Like lovers do on silver screens"

No more Mademoiselle Doormat.

Feeling antagonistic. Decided to clean out my room. Most significantly, things that remind me of him like big tacky white teddy bear that says ‘I love you.’ Given to me on a previous Valentine’s Day. It disgusted me at the time but I could see how much he’d tried and so I played grateful. Now its over and done with, it sickens me all the more. I keep it in the top of my cupboard, facing away.
“I don’t want to fall back in love with you” “I just want to be left alone” he said last week. So why when I mention disposing of this foul symbol of affection does he get really offended and hang up? I don’t understand him....Eventually he took it off my hands, except now I'm not sure. Was I too harsh? my mind says: I just want to turn you down. I just want to turn you around
Oh, you ain't never had nothin' I wanted, but...
I want it all
I just can't figure out...

missing persons

I peered from around the living room curtains, waiting for her to come around the street corner. She didn’t come. i decided she’d gone missing and made it my duty to find her. Panicked. Slipped on trainers and big jacket over pyjamas and drove out. Found her sitting in pub lock-in with 37 year old punk, a computer geek, and fat bloke, drinking guinness. I had a couple of drinks. We talked about suburban secrets, immigration and the French until 3am. ‘Sorry I worried you’ she said, ‘I love you for coming to look for me’